I so long have searched for this answer
fleeting glimpses and more.
Why won't you face me?
Fleeting glimpses are more
look me in the eyes, face me!
I once saw a goddess in your shoes
It is not the emptiness that hurts but the emptying
I once saw a goddess of your hues
Take that mask off the wall,
I want to see the imprint of what was once your face.
The paint is chipping off your disguise
My armor never rusts, but it grows so heavy
I search for a mask that sees mine isn't,
Or that can show me that it is.
Why did I come all this way, only to find the same old face behind the mask?
Why show me what I want to see, if it isn't?
Sometimes I think I should have stayed asleep, so I could settle for less.
At least then I could settle.
Still, sweet surrender is forbidden to me.
I'll die when my strength fails.

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January 8, 2000
The world relaxes on my shoulders
Time still passes as I grow bolder
You fill my eyes, you are the horizon
You are the thought my dreames are based on.

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